I am starting to think I should take the word “fitness” out of the titles of these posts because with each passing day my journey becomes less about fitness and more about my journey through motherhood. I have said it over and over and I will say it again: there is something about this third child that has changed me. While my workouts and healthy living are a part of my daily routine, I am continuing to make a conscious effort to be more present and focused on these three sweet souls I get to mother. A Bible verse I shared with my class today from Timothy stated it perfectly, “Physical training is good, but training for godliness is much better, promising benefits in this life and the life to come.”
I am learning the role that fitness plays in my life. I know it is so important to take care of this temple I have been given. I am also at a point in the first time in my life that most days I start with God’s word before a workout– it didn’t always go like that. Fitness is a small piece of my puzzle and when someone asks me what I am training for, I say, “life” and that training does not just exist in the gym. For the purpose of this post, I will share where I am when it comes to my health & fitness puzzle as well as life with three munchkins four and under.
My Postpartum Journey
I want to get real here. I usually say life is grand and that is because overall, the good days outnumber the bad by many. However, I know that in a world displayed on social media, sometimes it is hard to see everyone’s good. I want my readers to know that I am real: I have bad days too, and some days are really bad. Some days I am grouchy and find myself using a tone I don’t like. There are days where I am overwhelmed and I catch myself wishing away these precious days. And some days I find myself not wanting to do a darn thing and then I see these three sweet faces looking at me and I know that I have to power through. I am not talking about the powering through of cleaning, cooking and doing household jobs. I am talking about powering through the joys of parenting: getting down on the floor to play, reading book after book, completing another puzzle and allowing playdoh in the house.
So when I say at 4 months postpartum, life is grand, it is really because the good days out weigh the bad. Although I do not show it every single day, I am truly blessed that God has chosen me to parent these three children and I am understanding how He wants me to do it. It has taken a lot of God’s word, a lot of prayer, and an awesome tribe of women who help me through this journey to get my here and happy to be in this place.
Little boy, S
As for S, at 4 months he is doing awesome! He turned a corner with sleep and is now sleeping 10-12 hours a night. He rolls over back-to-belly and belly-to-back and talks up a storm. He laughs too, but pretty much only for big brother, M. People constantly comment on how chill he is and it is the truth. He also has a different look than the other two and J and I joke that he finally has a baby who looks like him. I truly love this stage because he is becoming interactive and loves his momma. I spend my afternoons holding him a lot which explains my lack of blogging– and that is okay.
As for my health & fitness, the balance I feel right now is awesome! I did weigh myself this month and have lost more weight. I am about 10 pounds away from where I was before having S. I know I will get there with time. I continue to live a balanced life: exercising, eating to fuel my body and still enjoying treats and wine here and there. I was able to get on my normal size of jeans and it actually didn’t make me thrilled– that tells me my mind is in the right place. I was actually way more thrilled when I bench pressed 2 sets of 8 reps at 100 pounds! I feel really strong right now and my workouts and eating are fueling me to live out my purpose as mother, wife, and disciple each and every day and that is what matters.
My nutrition has been really strong lately and I am in a pretty good groove. I know what makes me feel great and gives me the energy to get through the day and I tend to stick with that way of eating. I tell my online boot campers that I can’t tell them what to eat because everyone’s body responds differently to protein, fat and carbs. I suggest that you be a student of your body and learn what works for you and that is exactly what I have done. This means that I try to stick to my way of eating as much as I can because it is what makes me feel the best. When I eat badly I get tired, grouchy and irritable and I don’t like feeling like that.
At 4 months postpartum I have changed a few of my goals since my 3 month post. I am not training for a race right now but have a few on my radar that I might try and run. I am most proud of listening to my body and getting stronger: I can feel the strength I am building each day when I am carrying the kids of the stairs, carrying the carseat and chasing my munchkins. Here is a report on my goals:
- Pull Ups: No pull-up yet, but I am using a thinner band each time at the gym to do assisted pull ups.
- 5 Workouts: I have been sticking to this and am proud. Thursday is usually my rest day and but the time Thursday comes, I need it!
- Play: I have actually stopped playing tennis. (BIG waste of money.) I was playing late on Thursday nights and it was becoming harder to go and do it after the kids went to bed. I have had to admit that sometimes I take on too much and some thing have to go– this was it. I know my day will come when I can do this, but this is not the season.
- ENJOY: I am enjoying this life, this season. I have three wonderful kids and a great husband. I have also made some good friendships in the last 10 months that I am really grateful for. Each day I wake and truly find the joy in this journey.
- Give Back: This is something I have added. As I continue to volunteer at my church and teach fitness classes as a part of our fitness outreach ministry, I wanted to add something else. I want to begin to use my talents to give back to the community and other causes.
At 4 months postpartum I see the bigger picture: my postpartum fitness journey is more about my whole puzzle. My spiritual life is the center of this journey and health & fitness is one way I honor God and take care of His temple. Taking care of my body by eating well and making my fitness a priority makes me a better wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend. Thank you for following along this journey.